Carousel

Don't break even,
you gotta breakthrough.
Stop looping,
we gotta start running.
I'm not pretending,
though I know you are.
Please stop spinning,
I'm so sick of this.
Riding sick cycle carousel.

New

A new day, brings closure to everything that belongs to yesterday. Yesterday was only another part of life that held on to you before slipping away, yet the impact was so real you can only now look back and sigh in regrets or laugh with content. What was my yesterday? I can't be sure to say its the best or worst I've ever felt, but one thing I am sure of, that I am blessed, with what I was given and what I will be guided to. It was definitely magical and surreal the moment of closing the ring, everything kept pouring in like a train wreck in the heavenly kingdom, leaving me yet asking me to not to forget to remember them.

Looking back, see what's left of me? What's left of them? The moon needs to shift its course of rotation sometimes and so do we. Funny if you ask, "Should we?" There is no definite answer but it is not something in our hands to manipulate, we just did. We're looking at each other like seeing perfect strangers we've known forever, so familiar but yet so far away. A garden can be nurtured, cared and so beautifully planted, but that may not be forever, like humans, like us. Nevertheless, I like to think of us as water, all of us as a big pond, perhaps the ocean. I know you'll know why, because I'm certain you're hoping for the same thing too.

The moment everyone held their breath for the indicator explosion, I made a wish. To be exact, wishes. From selfishly for myself to selflessly, the world. Maybe these should not be told, but all in all, they share the same thing, for a beautiful today, a better tomorrow. And when they all come true, I'll know that's because we weren't just sitting, waiting and wishing.

Till then, may it be merry.

What is?

Ignorant.
Peacemaker.
Failed connector.
Filler.
The 11th Mate.
The 12th Man.
Paparazzi.
Invisible.
Envier.
Villain.
Balsa.
Deep.
Idiotic.
Louder.
Bittersweet.
Between.
Sorrow.
Sieved.

It is what it is.
Bitch.

Declaration

There will come a time when u'll feel like waking up to reality, and everything that happened was only a dream, an endless dream. I'm waking up, to see that the memories are fading into dusts. It happened so fast and yet I've felt like living for a lifetime in this. I'm caught in the middle.

Another day without human voice of disguise, it felt so peaceful, yet so lonely... We stop interfering anymore, you have your little world to spin, and guess I'll just live mine. The red letter day of mine is a burden of yours. Why bother? What used to make you laugh doesn't do the trick anymore. You've bought a new sense of humor, perhaps a new wrong or right too. You've redrawn a new circle of life, I have no alternatives but spinning out of control. You're now a rootless tree. You've left behind what you once were to pursue the new you. Maybe you're wandering happily in your gold labyrinth, or am I the one in the maze?

This is your declaration of war, and I with due respect, ready to accept it.
If you have the slightest idea to cease, please ask yourself : Can you hear me, when I call your name?

Photo

A photo told me that people can lie so much about everything...
A photo told me that I am me, and they are them, nothing more...
A photo told me that friendship is only a word to describe status between me & u, without meaning it...

A photo told me these,
Does it do the same to you?

A photo can be so real and so fake,
Snap, snap...
U faked a smile and it's captured,
I faked an emotion and it's hidden,
Yet it can show us so much,
If u search deeper within it,
And u'll know,
That the photo is just it,
Nothing more, nothing less,
Just a photo....

Salvation

Maybe redemption has stories to tell,
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell,
Where can you go to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here.....

And I dare you to move....

The Other Side Of Dragonball

I'm now in this loop of depression. Guess no one can really save me out of it. Perhaps it's true I let myself into it. Maybe I even dug my own loop. I got tangled up in the middle of empty silence and there's no sweet escape out of it. You said you cared no more because you knew, from the very beginning, that everything is temporary. Perhaps this is longer than what you've expected and I hope to prove you wrong, that I'm permanent, and so is everything else. I'd go hungry, I 'd go black and blue, because I'm too, like you, a living soul.

Just watched Dragonball Evolution after the disappointing test. Basically to rate this movie, it could be one of the worst movie of the year. I mean, there are loop holes every here and there, the plot was not as good as the original and the list goes on and on. But if we're a little less picky, it could be an entertaining movie. Maybe Justin Chatwin isn't the best Goku but at least he's charming and he took the challenge playing the role. And I realized, if we expect less from it, we won't find it that bad after all even though it's the worst.

Perhaps it goes the same for life too. The more we expect from it, the more disappointment we get. The less the better. I've been expecting less from life, but somehow, less come out of less. What can I expect?