The Lately Me

Finally created my own 1st blog (besides the friendster blog which was like n years ago). Feels like speaking my mind lately, but somehow cant find the right way to express it out, so mayb blogging wil do me good...

My mind right now is 2 crowded, with thought & emotions i cannot express. think its gonna explode soon. been thru a lot lately, although it doesnt seem much to u all, mayb not physically, but mentally. sumtimes i wonder how can a 20 to be kid think so much. but cant help it, its sumthing u cant control sumtimes....

have u been under 1 roof, a roof u thought can give u shelter & warmth u nid but in d end, u realise u get nth but jz a piece of emptiness? i was once there, guess i was stupid & too innocent then. too sad in the end it gave me a piece of emptiness too... n nth else.... had to jump out of my perfect little world, n take time 2 realise tat everything was so wrong jz isnt my thing.... how i wish i could stuck back to the past then, remains who i was..... its funny ppl think of soldiers going for war as some kind of heroes but never realise the consequences..... when ppl r thinking how they wish to have superpowers like superman, they never realise how superman wish he's normal....

sumtimes how i wish i could avoid seeing things i shouldnt.... but i guess i cant escape afterall. batman was right, u either die a hero o live long enuf 2 see urself become a villian...... everyone cant be a hero for everybody.... everyone eventually is the villian in one's mind, no matter how perfect we are.... we cant please everyone n so as we cant expect everyone to please us..... tat's life.. but how i wish things could have been better, jz a lil bit better....

i learnt something tat day, a simple cruel truth so true we cant disagree. my world was so perfect then, how i wish it remains....

guess i never really tell anyone how i feels sometimes, its hard for me i guess, tat's who i am i guess... but 'thanks' to sumtimes' morning breakfast sessions with my housemates, i shared some with them sumtimes, thanks 2 my roommate's effort to wake me up 4 breakfast (as u noe im not those who wake up early)

going back hometown tis weekend for mom's bday, cant wait....

p/s: thanks 4 stopping by.... feel free to leave comments.... thx